AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THIS SUCKS!

Only Child?

I found my biological dad today. I called his wife, his ex wife( I was in their wedding when I was almost 8) I talked to her for awhile, I cried. I have 2 half brothers. They know about me. One lives in California and one in Montana. My dad called, he has a charcol drawing of me on his wall. wow.

Ramble

Well,

School is out in 5 days...or rather 5 more days of going to school and 7 more days until I go under the knife to get the 'ol Uterus taken out.
Logan is going to be in the second grade next school year and has made outstanding progress this year. I am so proud of him! He is growing up so fast!
This time next week I will be in a hospital bed, hopefully sleeping comfortably without pain. Logan will be at my parents house , hopefully sleeping. Walt will be holding down the fort at home.
I have been having dreams about babies the last week or so, expected I am sure. I am so ready for this to be taken care of. A little bit nervous about the pain..but hey, I can take it!!TTYL...after I get home!

Scared

So I have a total of three appointments this week, the first was Monday. I have been having issues with the womanly part of my life and body and went to the gynecologists . I have had a pretty abnormal history so I was trying to stay positive. While there , of course, they check blood pressure. It was very high. We decided to go on with the appointment and check it again at the end. Thinking maybe it was "white coat" syndrome. During the exam, lots of questions and several words. Hysterectomy, poly cystic ovarian syndrome, cancer....all a lot to take in. At the end, blood pressure still high, taken off BC pills, put on Progesterone and told to take Bp again that night or in the morning. So the next day get my Bp taken and its still really high, hence the appointment today with my regular DR. Friday is the blood work and pelvic ultrasound. I am trying to stay positive and relaxed. Taking deep breaths and really trying to let things go. Its not working very well. So please, if you read this, pray or do whatever you do that things will work out for the best whatever that may be. Thanks